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equivocal..

  • Jul. 31st, 2011 at 11:25 PM
wonder

despite all craziness and insanity of the most of the people over here I still can 'feel' myself once in a while despondent and cheerful(after relentness efforts to pull myself together).. I've deeply concentrated on the GRE and nothing disturbs me any more... The flies around me stay as flies..They are not embody themselves as 'contemporary generation'.. They more look like an ancient society with everyday rumours, gossips and with incontrovertible inclination to believe these cheap chat buzzings ... Time 4changes?


Kaplan

  • Jul. 24th, 2011 at 9:01 PM
studying

thanx to Kaplan I've got 1150 just at preparation!


vacation...

  • Jul. 22nd, 2011 at 2:50 PM
travel

So wanted 2go somewhere 4vacation...but while I was pondering and seeing wht the world could offer 2me for $800, my wish is gone...nothin compares with the U.S.A!


the love...

  • Jul. 20th, 2011 at 9:45 PM
love

I had a dream last night..That night reminded me my previous love..I was too devoted to that person...It was three years of unknown feelings and couple month to realize that..It shoed to me that nothing beautiful and happy lasts 4ever...I dare to say that I sill thinkin about back this time, but everything then would be different now and I don't want to that..And I had comprehended that after these hirrible events...I made a mistake, but this person doesn't want to talk with me anymore...My heart is bleeding with those memories...and now I can c them more vaguely, but more pleasantly and brighter...ooh, all Urs philosophy made me stronger and smarter..I can't express how I'm glad 4that...And smtime love still seizing me, but I know that it's vain, to even think about it...I'm so glad that this love was platonic...just make me suffer more 4now..My heart belongs to this person forever and infinitely more...Anyway, I hope that U'll be fine and may be someday our lifes will intersect again....♥


Deja Vu

  • Jul. 19th, 2011 at 10:31 PM
all be good, positive
couple weeks ago I've seen an unimaginable Deja Vu about smth grandiose and cheerful gonna happen..it was so brightful...but I've no fuckin idea wht it could be!

GRE

  • Jul. 18th, 2011 at 8:12 PM
physics, science

work my ass off 4 GRE…goooosh! (more than 1000 pages)

happy Birthday?

  • Jul. 17th, 2011 at 10:32 PM
devil

crowded at home..someone celebrating something..but under all these happiness life conseals the gardest people's efforts with a lot of quarrels and misunderstandings...and champagne with recognized clap already opened.... but I'm makin the picts of flowers...nothin can stand with that right? tomorro go back to my eng and Dracula :) let's release the darkest sides of beautiful human soul

Diary...

  • Jul. 16th, 2011 at 1:02 PM
devil
Preparin' 4 celebration like a torture...it is getting harder 2live with parents..They have different view of growin' up the kids and they used to yellin on them all the time 4no reasons..I'm so exhausted 'bout it...I don't think that my mental world can afford such an invasion there and just tumbling down it as tumbling down of the Berlin Wall... no news about my toward job yet, but I c the light getting into the small slit of halliburton...Gotta go to shopping

new old life...

  • Jul. 12th, 2011 at 12:49 AM
USA
Wow I haven't been here for a while...for a lot actually... So I can say that some circumstances had broken me down, but, still, I've found a strength to struggle with happening in my life right now.. Ok, first, the U.S government had rejected me twice. And at second time it was quite fair to me cuz if I was as those guys, sitting there and 'analyze' us as potential immigrants, as people who have intentions to do something wrong, I'd never give a visa for myself.. I can admit that I was lying to them partly about my intentions and the ambassador realized it pretty fast enough. I was really falling apart like may be three weeks and now I still despondent but I've got another tool as myself.. I'm preparing to the GRE test and it is really important to me cuz all my future depends on it. I wish to be accepted at the U.S university and I wanna to continue my education as Master of Science over there. No doubts that I completely love the U.S because of a lot of reasons.. One, the most relevant reason is that I had met the best people ever. They always support me (so still they do), we had something really common and this common turned out like a connection between us. They treated me really good all the time, even knowing who I am (the evilesnesss) and I just feel that I was created to be there, to live there freely, breathing with lungs overfilled with emotions and life as it is, to invent something that will help for all Mankind.. I hope that I will succeed...I am never give up, so I gonna be better, if wasn't  good enough and I gonna take a shot to spend this year devoting to my job and at the start of sumer I will be accepted to the U.S university. And with whole experience and with all my background life I gonna do the best for our planet! Nothing venture, nothing have! I love U.. xoxo
P.S even after a hash-hash business with the u.s president I wasn't good enough to come to the America :)

I am a Dreamer....

  • Jun. 14th, 2011 at 12:53 AM
religion
А видимо все так должно быть....именно так...Сегодня мне приснился сон и я пытался снова и снова возродить прошлое, но, увы, не получилось...Впрочем как и всегда.. Но этот раз был особенный. Потому что в этот я понял, что была принесена жертва...Жертва которую ты приносишь, поможет тебе в будущем. Она сделает тебя настолько сильным, что ты даже и представить не можешь...Прошедший месяц научил меня многому... Как ни странно, все карты указывают явно на одно- мне поможет какой-то добрый человек и благодаря ему я куда-то очень далеко уеду с другим добрым человеком.. А вы представляете этот добрый человек...и не был добрым, до тех пор, пока я не познал его мир... Все перевернулось с ног на голову... Очень хороший урок предоставила мне жизнь... Точнее я выудил жизнь показать мне человека с другой стороны. Значит глубоко в душе вера не умирала) А сидела и ждала, когда же предоставиться возможность познать что-то новое, неизведанное... И вот жизнь мне дает ещё один сюрприз.. Странное заболевание, которое вскочило буквально наперекор моему будущему поколению это браво, бесспорно, БРАВО... Апплодирую стоя) И помощь тут как тут) Естесственно пришлось прибегнуть к помощи ведунов и лекарей, которые сказали, что удалив плохую часть тебя, хорошая часть меня будет процветать и возможно даже дольше чем я ожидал.... А всё же, важный опыт пробежал в моей голове и устроил там погром... Важные мысли были поставлены. Ну да, месяц был тяжелый, США сказало, что я заядлый врун, что дало мне второй шанс на подтверждение их же слов....Но в этот раз все будет по-первому классу...Буквально.... А если не по-первому, так по-второму.... Самое интересное в том, что моя независимость будет заслужена сполна.... И будет ликовать с фейерверками....И договор с Богом будет подписан на днях...Ну как никто он не должен же врать:) И я Верю.... Ведь я Dreamer... А Вы видели ли когда-нибудь пределы своих мечтаний??? Я вот нет :) И Вы, надеюсь....

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